I made a big mistake to my sister several weeks ago. She and I were talking about something. I got into the bog of logical network, a hot and treachrous network, so I said something very bad to her. At the very instance, I apologized her immediately. I felt so much sorry for her. It's so sad that I said such words to my sister. After a few days, whenever I faced her I apologized her. But I don't think she can forget all about it totally. Deep down under her subconscious, the memory of my mean figure remains forever. Maybe I hurt people by my words so many times and maybe got hurt by people so many times. I wanted her to accept my opinion. More exactly I forced it. The importance of words... Everybody had its own thoughts and ways of living. I can never despise or look down on someone just because (s)he has a different way of thought. I KNOW THAT. and recognize it. The reason why she and I got into the quagmire of dialog was that she thought I had no [code of life] to live by. We had a long conversation about it. (after I apologized her.) For the first time in my life, I think I told someone about my thoughts and my goals of life thoroughly. What I want to do, why I behave like this, the plan I have for the future. She took it pretty well. and said [Now I can understand some part of your behavior.] To have someone who can understand your behavior and appreciate your plans and thoughts, whoever it may be, is a bless. To have someone who you can talk to without any hindrance from your heart, whoever it may be, is a bliss. To have someone who you can share the pains and hurts from the tides of life, whoever it may be, is a happiness. Thank you my dear. and I am so sorry about what I said to you. It was just a mistake and I didn't mean it. This is an apology from the bottom of my heart. Now we understand what we think and want. I'll help you whenever I can. Remember that I'm always your elder brother. and you are my little sister. :-) May you find a good person who understands you and whom you understand. I'll try, too. :-) (But I don't think I can find someone because my life will be tough and not smooth. as you know.) Be well. And I'm sorry for what I said to you. Forgive me. Meet you this weekend when I'm home with smiling face. :-) ------- Blessed are those who are penitent.