Hello! Very sorry to hear that! As a Korean, it was a real pain that I got to know such a terrible news. I feel angry and sympathy, but we shouldn't fail to keep our mind strong and healthy. Since I haven't been in the situation as terrible as yours, it may be very easy to speak here, but I'd like to say my ideas which may be able to be changed into some wisdom. There's nobody, who can cure your hurt mind, except yourself. Anybody can't understand how hard you have been living with it out there. You should, though, find any proper friends in order to share your sorrow and HAN(This word is a Korean word). Do anything possible to get over this disaster! You have to try! If you do, you will get a rebirth, take a new breath, and live in a new world. Sorry to speak, if you fail, it'll be hell wherever you may go. This is a real war. I hope you win eventually! Good luck!