hey, how are you today? I guess you feel all right after wrting a kind of implicated thing to understand... what a complicated process is going on in your brain? there is no ideal one in this world, just people keep trying to make it somehow, and they maybe want to believe this is the one what they are looking for. the thing is we are changed and modified by us or possibly by the others(its circumstances) We can not easily forget the ones + things we love neither keep forever. I think it is the time to say "Thank you" life for having been through. We will be able to find a better way to cope with the life heading on to us. You don't need to push yourself into a certain space, just let it go, whatever comes to you, whatsover you may feel. let them go... Don't even try to sort it out, specially when you feel something missing.. Do some for yourself, if then, you've got what is takes. Everythings come and go, as time does.. as people do. You need to ignore just slightly what you've done. Do one more step, then you will have a chance to think & judge it agein. Be happy without putting a reason, just simply accept and enjoy what I am doing.. in positive way. Cheer up!. It's a lonely .. tonight. ------------------------- Study a lot, Love a lot -------------------------